Red Thread To China 2007

Jerry got the call today from the builder that they want to set up a meeting with the construction manager for next week. Yeah!!!!!! That means they will be starting soon. I can't wait to actually be in it though. If everything goes well we may be in by spring.
I think decorating the new house might take my mind off the adoption wait, which I really need right now. I have been doing so well up until this last month or so. I can't seem to get this bad feeling out of my head that we will never get to the end of this very long tunnel. It is so great to see all the referrals every month and all the babies coming home., I feel so happy for all those families, but at the same time I feel such an overwhelming sense of sadness that it is not our family this time and that it may never happen for us. Jerry always tells me to relax, our time will come. And I know in my mind that he is right, but my heart aches for this child. To hold her in my arms, to comfort her and let her know that she will never have to feel alone again. I want to take care of her when she doesn't feel well, when she is sad or hurt. Sorry to go on and on about this. Maybe tomorrow will be better.

I am just sitting here thinking about the wait being so long. It is really depressing considering we still have probably at the least 2 more years of waiting maybe more. I am starting to wonder if I can actually get through this. I worry about being 3 years older when we finally get our little one. We have also applied for SN but that doesn't seem to be going any better these days. If We had known then that we would be pursuing a sn adoption we would not have gone with an agency until we found a child on one of the lists. It seems that way is faster.

Jerry has SRP (Soldier Readiness) today through Saturday so thats just one more thing to worry about. That means that at any time after that he can be picked to go to Iraq again. He was gone last time for 18 months. And that whole time I did nothing but worry. So that on top of the long wait for referral is weighing heavily on my mind these days. I know things have to get better at some point, but the question is when.

We headed down to Austin friday so that we could attend an Adoption ravel and training class put on by Great Wall. It was a very nice class. We met alot of nice couples and learned alot of valuable information to use when we travel. We also recieved 3.5 hours of the credit we need for the hauge, we only need 4.5 mored hours to be fully in compliance. THey had some Chinese trays, scrolls, and a book put out by the CCAA. They are all beautiful and will look great in Mylie's room. Today we are going Antique shopping, who knows we may find something for her room. I can't wait to start decorating it, although it will be quite some time before we bring her home. It keeps my mind occupied. We learned from a BTDT family on what to take and not to take, very helpful. I will post pictures of the goodies when we get home. Hope everyone has a fabulous Sunday.

Look at Elvis. He thinks he is the King of the castle. This was taken on New Years when we were all just laying around enjoying the day off, all except me of course who has been battling some sort of flu/ cold kind of thing for about 2 weeks now. I guess I will have to finally break down and go to the doctors next week to get some antibiotics. I am thankful that my husband and son are not sick too.

Hi all,

We hope that everyone had a great New Year's Eve and that this year brings everyone health, happiness, and comfort during this long and seemingly unending wait for our children. We are hoping that our daughter finds her way to us this year. Since we applied to the Special Needs program I can't help but wonder where she is or if she has been born yet. If she has enough to eat and is warm. Hopefully we are on the down side of the wait now and are anxiously waiting to be matched with our daughter, Mylie. I just know that she will be perfect for our family in every way. We can't wait to hold her in our arms and show her just how much she is loved by her mommy and daddy. Hopefully this time next year we will be doing just that!!!

I do have to confess that she will most likely be spoiled rotten, and not just by me but everyone including her big sister Charla. I can't help but buy everything I see that has Ladybugs on it for her. Today we were at Wal-Mart and we found the cutest bicycle, now mind you it is an 18inch bike one she will not be able to ride for a few years. But it had Ladybugs on it!!!!!!! I just had to have it, so we bought one still in the box and will store it until she can ride it. I know I am crazy, but who knows if we will ever find another one so cute. It is absolutely perfect.

Have a great New Year!!!!!!